It is only recently that I’ve found my faith. In my 33 years I’d never considered myself religious nor had I studied any faith in particular. As a child I’d been to church only a handful of times and in adulthood, I attend proceedings solely out of necessity. This is typically to honor friends and loved ones at marital or burial ceremonies. To be completely honest the religious aspects of these ceremonies have always made me a bit uncomfortable. I do my best to respectfully smile my way through but don’t know the readings that those around me are chanting in unison and I often find the sermons to be off topic if not completely out of touch with modern times.
I couldn’t name many of the religions in practice around the world today. In fact, I can’t even name a few. I can’t recite for you even one biblical passage nor could I explain the differences between Christianity and Judaism.
But I do know God.
It seems silly to say it but the best way for me to describe this connection is to refer to the underlying theme of the Star Wars sagas – The Force. This is the energy which connects and moves all things. This is creative intelligence. This is God. And it is within me just as much as it is in you, the plant life, the wildlife, the ebb and flow of our ocean tides. This energy is life itself and just as the saga’s suggest, it is possible to tap into this energy and make it work for you.
As for the dark and light sides of the force, one could relate this to the concepts of ‘good’ and ‘evil’. Some may call me naïve to admit that I do not believe there is much true evil to be found in this world as it is often confused with ignorance and fear-based action. There is certainly something to be said though about the idea of good and evil, right and wrong, true and untrue. And there is accuracy to the saga’s inclination that both sides of this force live within us all, that it is an internal battle we must all continually face throughout our lives.
Being that this force already flows within you, you need only to access it by speaking with your inner voice. An incredibly simple concept yet complex in its practice. Some refer to this as prayer, some call it affirmation. Whatever you wish to name it, when used positively it will undoubtedly free you of societal constraints and give you full control of your experience here on earth. For it is the dark force within you that manifests the darkness around you.
In my late adolescence I had fallen far, as many of us do, from my family and from my inner self. In response to self-piteous thought patterns I participated in self-defeating actions. A vicious cycle pursued and I remained in this misery for nearly a decade. Looking back, I now see that God was with me the entire time. There were hundreds, thousands of moments sprinkled in between the darkness. Moments that I didn’t recognize as divine intervention, but they were. The force was with me. Nudging me ever so slightly to the realizations that were yet to come and every time one of these tiny moments would occur it was in the form of my inner voice.
Thousands of divine moments led me here today. To this peaceful, waterside homestead and to this deep, rewarding relationship. Our shared need for change prompted our search for understanding. This led us down a path of self-growth which brought us to readings about knowledge of self. These sub-conscious power ideals went off like light bulbs in our heads. What if this entire time our thoughts, our inner voices were the cause of our reality? But of course! For it is our thoughts that drive our actions and for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
For the first time in my life I can say that I am taking a leap of faith. I am stepping out of fear induced ‘safety’ and chasing my dreams. I am boldly leaping into the unknown with full faith in my ability to overcome my fears and create my own circumstances.
I no longer wish to simply feed my belly. Knowledge of self and serving others – this is what feeds the soul. I now focus daily on vibrating with positivity, love and acceptance, and I will inspire others in this pursuit.
Making this connection, learning how to harness it and putting this into practice – this is my miracle. For it has brought me closer to myself, to the light force within me, to God. It has quite literally brought me home.